wedding date

    So we have finally decided on a date and venue for our wedding .  We have decided on a day in October and that we are going with an out door wedding and an indoor reception.

getting better

     I'm slowing getting out of whatever funk I am in right now.  I just hate when I get like this and feel that I have no one to talk to.  My fiancee I can tell is getting tired of me talking about the same thing or what is bothering me because he doesn't know what he can do to help.  He says I should go and talk to someone.  The only problem is is that I don't have the time to do that. I'm constantly being called into work to the point that I should just get a cot and sleep there.

Things I want to do this up coming month

     The things I want to do this up coming month:
1. Go to renaissance Faire
2. Go to Nero
3. Get an manicure
4. Get a new mirror and other things for my car
5. Loose more weight

Having one of my moments

     I am having one of my down moments right now.  I don't know why I am having these and it is starting to concern me.  My fiancee thinks its because my job that I love is not making me happy anymore and that I should find something else.   The only thing is is that I don't like jumping from job to job to job because it's not making me happy like it once was.  I'm pretty sure that the moment we are not short staffed anymore that I will feel better and can relax more.

Hanging out with friends

     I forgot how much fun hanging out with friends is.  I have been working all the time that I don't remember what having fun with other people is like.  That is the life unfortunately of a 911 dispatcher.

Valentines day

   I couldn't celebrate Valentine's day on the 14th like everyone else because I had to work.  But last night my fiancee and I went out for dinner to celebrate.  We went to a restaurant called Catches.  The food was amazing and the atmosphere was very relaxing. 

Flowers

     My fiancee and I went to some local florists yesterday.  We got a couple ideas while in the stores and will be making appointments next week or the week after to sit down with a consultant to get more information and estimates on how much it will cost.  I never realized how much time and energy goes into planning a wedding.

struggle of dieting

     I have only been on my diet for a couple weeks but it is really hard.  I want to eat what I want to eat or over eat on things I shouldn't eat.  But I am determined to stay on track and loose this extra weight I gained.

New Car

     I got a new/used car with my tax return.  So I am now able to once again drive and have some independence.  I got a 2002 VW Beetle.  I absolutely love it.  Today my fiancee went out and bought a new radio and speakers for it.

Starting night shift

     Starting tonight or tomorrow depending how you look at it.  I start night shift.  Don't get me wrong.  I love night shift.  The only draw back is going to be having a partially no social life.

Food Poisoning

     So I got food poisoning from some bad sushi yesterday and had to call out of work today.  But the good news for yesterday is that i finally have a car and the only things that need to be done is to get is insured and registered.  I'm so excited.  Oh and what I got was a used 2002 VW beetle.