Trying to get out of this mind set

     So for the past couple of days I have been feeling down.  I have actually broken down crying a couple of times.  I don't know if I'm going through a depression because it is coming up on the one year anniversary of my grandmother's passing or not.  I mean I really miss her and wish that she was still here.  I wish that she was here to see me get married next year.  But I also have been hard on myself as well.  If I made the right choice in my career, if I will ever get my posh business off the ground, and will I ever get anything that I write published.  I just hope that I can get out of this and be my cheerful self once again.