My greatest fear is my secret thrill

     I like most people have a huge fear of spiders.  I don't like that they walk around on 8 legs and can climb walls.  I don't like the eyes and the webs that they make most of the time.  If I find one in any of the rooms of my house I have to have my fiancee to go kill it. 
     But I also get a secret thrill from them too.  I can look at a picture and get a sort of adrenaline rush from it spiked by my fear.  Watching horror movies with killer or mutant spiders are my all time secret thrill of these creatures.  Something about a monster that is made from something I already fear makes it worth while for me.
     This thing I get most is that that chill that goes down my spine when i am watching movies and event documentaries with this pest in it.  I don't understand why I have this thrill but I guess it might be a way for me to try to get over this fear.  But I also feel that if I didn't have this fear then I wouldn't be in love with the movies that I like that uses this creature as the bad thing in the movie. 
     So I guess I just want to know if anyone else out there has this secret thrill like I do.

My new outfit

    I went with my finacee to a mall in Jacksonville.  We went to a store called Subculture Corsets and the store is amazing.  They not only sell corsets but other clothing as well.  I got a whole Steam Punk inspired outfit.  I can hardly wait for a time to wear it.  If you are interested in looking into this store here is the link https://subculturecorsets.com/ .  They are always getting new stuff all the time.

List of Goals I want to do or try

I have a few things that I have been thinking about doing or at least giving it a try and thought I would share.

1. Trying bullet journaling.
2. Try my hand at making beard oil for my Fiancee.
3. Try my hand at making soap and other bathroom products.
4. Become a Perfectly Posh Consultant (when I save up enough money).
5. Write a story to be published.

Hurricane Irma 2017

     I have survived Hurricane Irma.  I got called into work and ended up staying the night on Sunday so that if they needed extra dispatchers I was there to help.  It was scary but we tried to make the best of it.  I hope a lot of my fellow Floridians weathered the storm as well as I did.  I still have my home and family so I am thankful for everything that I have.