Hello again.

     I know I haven't posted in a long while and I'm sorry for that.  I have been going through some stuff and had to take some time to work on me.  I have been dealing with some depression but have been put on some medication that seems to be helping a little bit.  I have also been seeing a therapist.  I can't really go into detail right now but to let you know in the end and in the best interest for my health.  I had to leave my job that I loved because of the stress and the types of things I was dealing there on a daily basis.  

    For those of you that don't know I was a 911 call taker and dispatcher for 7 years at my local law enforcement agency.  A personal thing happened to me that certain calls were triggering my depression and maybe PTSD type thing ( I have not been diagnosed but have been told by the EAP rep that it sounded like it).  I had to step away to that I could focus on getting better and hope to someday in the future go back to this job.  I have taken a less stressful job but am having some struggles with going from a high stress job to a low stress one.  My new coworkers are understanding and are helping me though.

    I wanted to start using this blog as a diary to document how I'm doing and the struggles I am facing and hoping to find people having or had similar situations that I have.  To share those experiences to help other people.  I am hoping that this can help me with getting better and becoming the person that I once was and who I know I am again.

I have started a Twitch stream

     I have started my own Twitch channel and have been streaming for a couple of days.  I am still new and learning as I go but so far so good because I stream while playing with friends who are also streamers as well.  My handle is BCEPoliceGirl. 

Last day of vacation

     On the last day of my vacation I stayed at home.  I got to finish setting up my fish tank and it looks amazing but I have to do a couple water changes before I can put my fish in it.

Day 6 of my vacation

    I was going to go to a flea market outside of St Augustine because they were having a Steam Punk event going on.  But because I wasn't feeling that well I ended up not going.  I just ended up staying home and relaxing.

Day 5 of my vacation

    My fiancee and I went to a flea market in Homassasa that day.  We walked around and saw what some people were selling.  We didn't get anything because we didn't see anything that we were looking for.

Day 4 of my vacation

    I went with my fiancee and friend to St Augustine.  We walked around the shopping area and ate at a restaurant call the Bull and Crown.  The food was really good there.  We then went to a local beach and walked up and down the coast.  That was the first time I had ever been or seen the Atlantic Ocean.

Day 3 of my vacation

   Today I went to the aquarium store with my fiancee to look at plants for my betta tank.  I got a couple plants and I think I know how I want to set it up.